been at the 'create post' pg of 3 hrs n written nth. haha...

discussing GPP with beverly, but doesnt seem productive...

june hols...
i need to start studying!!! seriously, i shouldnt be online...
last wk, 3 consecutive days of more than 6hrs of com is killing me...
now, no amt of sleep is gonna help... i'm damm dead, all because of HBL... sian

this mth's schedule, packed? not really, yah, it's damm packed... i also dunno how to describe... it's packed as compared to my previous years' june schedule. but it's ok as compared to some of my friends'...
hais... god, i dun wish much, i onli hope that i can finish revising everything n sail through my mid years... so that i can enjoy my post exams...





do u think that i'm very selfish?
i dunno... i'm confused...
sometimes i'm afraid to hear the answer...
i would choose rather not to think abt it, but i cant help it!

there are many things that i'm not used to saying out...
no matter to who the person is...
there are some things i can mouth out easily, some things i nv will...
i hate my coward self... i'm procrastinating...

okok, i'm getting emo... STOP IT!
concentrate on loving, giving and receiving... in no matter what you do.
be your best in everything, n make sure that you dun regret. Jiayou chingyee!




this post is getting long n maybe nonsensical... but the best is always saved for the last... for my sweetheart... haha :P
working 6 days this wk is tough work, esp in this long wknd with damm lots of patrons. nevertheless, must rmb to think of me. haha. :p but if u get scolded by manager cuz u were not concentrating cannot blame me hor.:P hehe i noe that wont happen de... :p
love u, smiiles~ :)

祝 xinan 一路顺风。 :)

have a nice trip n make lots of new friends. :)

must remember to think of me and nan once in a while hor. :P haha.
but think of him more... :p if u are thinking of him n forget abt us, we wont mind de. haha. :P

presents mah... see anything nice then buy ba, i dun mind... :P most impt is to take gd care of urself n have loads of fun. take a lot of pics hor... :)

love u. smiles~
i will miss u de... :p

today early release must rest well. :)

seeya soon...

Looking forward to seeing you...

sorry for yesterday...

Tkd lunch

yesterday had lunch at astons', Suntec....
quite happy to be able to get tgt wif seniors. :)

they announced the results of exco after the lunch.
I got in, n congrets to those in exco.
for those who didnt make it, dun be too sad....
(ps, xinan, u noe u can still count on me :p)

new post, new commitments, i need to put in more effort to prove myself... jiayou. :)

today's HBL, looking at the pile of things to do...
damm sian le... dunno where to start. maybe i should do sth that i'm gd at...

tmr got exco meeting, seniors passing down their stuff to us... going back sch to decorate noticeboard.

thurs going shopping with xinan n nannan. :) looking forward. hope that u will have an enjoyable trip to swiss, dun miss me too much hor. :P haha.

for my qin ai de, dun mia in my phone can? :P even though u r in my heart doesnt mean thats enough. :P haha. i noe u are busy lar, shouldnt disturb u too much de... :P loves~

A short story....

从前有一个小岛
上面住着快乐、悲哀、知识，还有爱

一天

情感们得知小岛快要下沉了
于是
大家都准备船只，离开小岛
只有爱留了下来，
她想坚持到最后一刻

过了几天
小岛真的要下沉了
爱想请人帮忙

这时
富裕乘着一艘大船经过。
爱说：“富裕，你能带我走吗？”
富裕答道：“不，我的船上有许多金银财宝，没有你的位置。”

爱看见虚荣在一艘华丽小船上，“虚荣，帮帮我吧！”
“我帮不了你。你全身都湿透了，会弄坏我这漂亮的小船。”

悲哀过来了，爱向她求助：“悲哀，让我跟你走吧！”
“哦……爱，我实在太悲哀了，想自己一个人呆一会儿！”悲哀答道。

快乐走过爱的身边，但是她太快乐了，竟然没有听见爱在叫她！

突然，一个声音传来：“过来，爱，我带你走。”
这是一位长者。
爱大喜过望，竟忘了问他的名字。
登上陆地以后，长者独自走开了。

爱对长者感恩不尽，问另一位长者知识：“帮我的那个人是谁？”

“他是时间。”知识老人答道。
“时间？”爱问道：“为什么时间要帮我？”

知识老人笑道：“因为只有时间才能理解爱有多伟大。”
(adapted fm wangzhe's blog)

this makes me think a lot...
quite meaningful...

tkd competition...

tkd competition's over, all our hard work comes down to just the less than five minutes of performance...

it was an enriching experience for me though... even though i hadto go to the same place for 3 days...

dunno whether to be happy or sad, but our A div team got overall 4th for both guys n girls. our seniors were all crying. i think maybe we didnt work hard enough or sth went wrong,. nv mind, there's still next year...
saturday's nationals was... this event taught me the difference btw the main team n me. now i noe where i stand, even though i was quite disappointed to not get into the final round, i was still glad that the main team ppl got sth for the sch...
sunday,... all i could say is everything went like a whoosh... our event was arranged at 5.35, but it was pushed forward like 1plus hour b4, the team had to rush there like .... wohh, we would have been disqualified... gd thing we made it in time.
in the end we got overall 4th, is this result gd? i dunno... all i could say is that we could have done better...

my first medal in vj, i will treasure it de. :)

sadly, i injure my toe yesterday b4 the first round of competition, its like bleeding n i have to continue. my senior came to ask whether i'm ok, i think i should be... :p haha. its just a small injury, but its damm ugly...



today is full day!!! should enjoy. :) hope that my qin ai de will have a gd day too. :) smiiles.

Damm sian diao today, slept 4 hrs (1.30-5.30am)

super tired... even though the com team didnt do very well as expected, i still wanna say, a job well done for all. :) we are all proud of u all...

was at bedok sports hall fm 9-6... tired... took 2 20 mins nap, neck super pain (i noe my posture was wrong)

this wknd burned, have to spend it at bedok sports hall, hope that it will be fruitful... jiayou!





sometimes i was thinking, 'you let me die better, it will be faster this way, dun torture me like that'...

had a little quarrel with my mum regrading by PW work. GPP get rejected, have to redo... hais, dunno have to burn how many more nights of midnight oil...



completed Chem video project, finally, another burden dropped. hope that it turns out well. thanks to Enjing for helping me for the start of the project, xinan n nannan for ur moral support, pei me until so late... thanks.




sometimes it's not that i wanna think too much, when i'm alone, i tend to think a lot. the more i try to not think abt u, the more u come to my mind... ok, fine, it's my fault, everything is my fault!!!

Jiayou for all competitors for tkd later!!!



haha finally finish Chem video. :)
nights!

Chem project last sprint!!

Jiayou jiayou. got xinan n nannan give me moral support, should be can de. (at least thats wat i hope so...)

thanks nannan for your msg. i'm super touched, even i'm so mean to u sometimes... i'm really happy to have a friend like u...

Xinan, my qin ai de...
thanks for staying by, haha (hope that u can tahan) i think i'm also quite bad to ask u to stay online wif me. :p love u! :p

Why do you give me the feeling that you dun wanna talk to me?
smses getting lesser...
maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe you are just busy...

sometimes i feel that i dun really noe u very well, this makes me feel insecure, although i try not to think abt it so much. Syl's right, i should try to noe u more, but i dun wanna be a stalker...

hais... so contradicting...
ok, i shouldnt bother u too much, i dun want u(and everyone else)to find me annoying.
mental note: be more independant! dun always complain, even though they r fine wif it now, dun take it for granted!

qin ai de, wat are u doing now? working i suppose... smile more, smoke less :p must think of me... :P

Sorry, i hurt You

sorry, i really didnt mean it. i guess i'm really too dumb.
i dun mean to hurt u...

i'm very bad at this...
i wish u could scold me to show ur displeasure...
it's my fault, it's all my fault...

im sorry that i hurt u, really sorry...
i wish that there's sth that i could to do...
but it's like how much i tried to save, hurt has already been inflicted... it can nv heal. even if u dun feel pain, the scar will still remain, constantly reminding u that this damage existed...

this is so cruel...

i need to confess, i'm being very annoying these days...
so i try not to show my 'mood' in front of them...
jus leave me alone, i noe its sounds very cruel.. it's jus that i keep saying the wrong stuff, indirectly hurting some ppl... i cant help it...

Sian... mood swing... damm serious... makes me exhausted...

hope that it will get better...
n sry for all those who have suffered cuz of my 任性 n bad temper

i wanna sleep but i cant... damm sian...
not in good mood these days... even though bbQ was fun, but... hais...

projects projects projects
tests tests tests
lesson lesson lesson

'm getting sick n tired of this... everyone's getting sick... including me, lovesick, cough, headache, muscle-ache... like a living zombie...

my routine: wake up, go sch, have lessons, eat, have lessons, cca, home, hw, sleep

the pressure's on, with deadline getting closer n closer, competition day reaching soon... everyone's frustrated... or maybe it's jus me...

ok, back to work now...
ps: qin ai de, get well soon :P

Labour Day long wknd... is it really long?

Firstly, happy labour day to all working ppl out there. some of ur may still be working but nv mind, jus remember that today will be a fun day! smiiles :)

this long wknd, a hectic schedule....
lots of things to complete, short of time...
today, the thing i'm looking forward to is bbQ!! waiting for this day to come for a very long period of time le!! everyone is! haha...
Sunday, going xinan's house...
to do chem project (sian)
haha, but looking on the bright side.... it will be fun, right? :P
Monday, tkd extra training...
competition is abt 3 wks away, everyone's working hard. i think i should too...

HW for the week
Math take home test
Math maxima minima tutorial
Bio organelles tutorial
Econs Elasticity Section B tutorial
PBL 3
PW GPP
Chem project
Econs Critique (KIV)

Lastly, I MISS MY QIN AI DE! <3
dun always tire urself out. remember to have gd rest! smiiles :)
Love u! :P