so happy today cuz my dad noticed me and commented that i slim down!!!

haha
so happy... haha finally my effort is noticable...

he last time keep saying i dun have a waist. now he say can see my waist le... :):)

:) hope that i can maintain this and keep up this work...

i think somehow it's cuz i'm working hard at work and i dun eat as much as compared to at home... :P
my mum keeps feeding me with all sorts of food... :P haha

ok today off finally after working for 8 consecutive days... tmr off again...

going out with kent and his roommate, dunno if i'll drop by to see yangjian tmr since he's sick...
poor him... too exhausted from the consecutive 3 days midnight shift till 4-5am... damm crazy...

hope he gets well soon~

realised i didnt record abt the accident on my left arm caused by the griller...

i was stretching to take the jumbo hotdog from the griller from the inner extreme end to put into the steamer, apparently my arm wasnt long enough... my arm touched the front bar of the griller... and then there goes... :(

burnt

scald

scar

ugly mark...

accidents diary 19jun

got burnt again...

this time by the popper... and this scar is on the surface of my left hand... so it's super obvious... :(

genhao heard my scream when my hand hit the kettle in the popper... asked me to go wash under running cold tap water and go office to apply burn cream... :/

omg why am i so careless?? :(

so the 2 of the biggest burnt scars, one by the popper, the other by the griller...

#sadlife

so freaking tired today!!

it's 11plus, and i'm freaking tired since the start of the day... :/

why?
cuz i skyped with allen last night till around 1am... lol

1st time trying Skype.... even though the purpose of skype is just to see each other's faces (we didnt chat, typed instead cuz i dun wanna wake the whole family up...) he psyco-ed me to skype... lol

Allen, a very interesting guy... the first person i talked to when i first joined gv plaza. he was my trainer at candybar on day 1... haha sometimes a joker... sometimes i really wonder which of his words are true... haha

i took him as a elder brother... haha nice to have a brother... :P haha but sometimes quite weird when he says i'm cute and stuff... i kept hinting that i only took him as a brother... haha he seems to accept it. hais... dunno what he's really thinking... lol

so cuz of him, i slept at 1plus and had to wake up at 8am cuz my shift started at 945 today... lol whole day super sleepy and stuff... kept complaining to him that it's all his fault and he's like laughing at my misery...

had to ask lowell to help me buy coffee during his break so that i can attempt to be more awake...

ok really need to repay my sleep debt (i doubt 1 night is enough...) annyeong~

夏天炎熱的天氣，讓人不禁心跳加速

今天算是和你聊了點心事....

更了解你一點... 感性的話題... 心情也跟著低沉了一點. 不知道怎麽說，想安慰你一下，給了一個擁抱... 

我很欣慰你能接受有這樣背景的我... 我真的很想告訴你不要再往前過來了... 但我卻很自私... 很卑鄙... 真的很害怕最後我們都會受傷，就因為我的自私... 年齡比較大的我應該比較成熟，分辨對錯... 

我應該怎麽做呢? 明知道這最後是沒有結果的... 應該早點懸崖勒馬吧... 我不想屬于任何人，我還要自由... 

清醒一點吧!! 保持一點距離對大家都好... 

accidents diary 15jun

today had quite a number of accidents... my left hand badly hit...

first, a slight scald on my middle finger... as i accidentally touched the griller... :/

next my fingers got kiap by the cash register twice today... too rush to close the drawer = poor fingers get hit...

last, the most scary one was the popcorn flying out of the popper and hit somewhere btw my left eye and my nose bridge... just less than one cm away to my eye... really thank god that theres no scar... or else i'll really be disfigured... :/ super scary... shall really go get specs with lens soon... to protect my eyes... omg that was so close...

sidenote, the big and disgusting blister on my index finger has dried up to become a dark scar... a memory that will stay with me for the rest of my life?

hope it becomes better... tmr off cuz of fathers day... haha gonna have consecutive 3 days work after that...

a day out...

went out with yangjian today...

dunno why but it felt like a date... (am i being too frank here? *blush*)

its slightly weird with the skinship and stuff... but its been long time since i felt this way... he didnt express it but can somehow feel what his thinking...

argh... i dunno! so... i dunno how to express it... today we went dhoby to have lunch tgt... then met his friends at vivo and catch a movie, now you see me. two of us sitting tgt and his other two friends sat quitr far away cuz they signed in... (also working at gv) went chinatown and bugis to shop around...

he was quite gentleman i would say... trying to pay for lunch, asking me to stand in front of him when talking the escalator, saying that its the norm back in china...

受寵若驚... kept trying to emphasize that here he doesnt have to do that... haha cuz i would feel damm awkward... got a feeling he was trying to have contact... tried to skillfully reject it... frankly speaking, i kinda enjoyed it... the way he tries to take care of me...

but then deep down actually quite scared that he would say those words... he's younger than me plus our background is so different... hope its me thinking too much... but then...

im not suppose to date... 就只能偷偷享受暧昧...

results year 1 sem 2

was looking at my previous posts and realise that i didnt post abt my results...

did really badly.... :( results got pulled down cuz i 不自量力... :( nth to say...

i didnt put in enough effort? i'm not that smart?
the truth is, i got squeezed out of the bell curve...

hais... gotta buck up soon...

most prob continuing with korean 3... haha surprised right? taking it as a challenge even though it seems like a huge jump... i really hope that i can still keep up!! :( 화이팅!! good thing is lowell and meina both are still continuing too (sorry for wrong grammar and sentence phrasing... haha but the meaning is there... haha) got ppl to pei me and advice me if i got any problems... haha :)

these few months of no studies... brain's gonna degrade soon...

rest day...

finally rest day after my long work week of 7 straight days...
my last off was last sun... lol haha

actually serves me right for saying that work one day rest one day is very slack... so manager 'purposely' called me back to work on the days that was not originally my turn to work...

haha it is just qiao he that got ppl mc so i had to cover them... lol

back to my accidents diary...

got this super big and ugly blister from work... :( refer photo post on twitter...
cuz the sugar piece shot out of the popper and landed on my index finger... hot caramel = burnt = scar... :(

so sad... it's like my finger disfigured alr... :( hais... really hope that i wont be so 'lucky' next time to be blessed by the caramel sugar...

tmr going out with yangjian... haha telling ppl abt it feels weird. cuz it's really quite weird that only 2 of us going out... dun get it wrong, it's not a date... lol haha...

just hope that i won't be called back to work... haha may everyone be healthy!! haha :P

today, change of plans, 要放人家飛機... 很過意不去，可是他會了解的...

supposed to accompany yangjian to bugis street today after my work at 3plus... but then manager decided to extend my shift till 7plus... so sad cannot keep my promise... but there will still be other chances... i hope...

that day did floor duty with you. you said you wanted to buy a backpack and a watch for work. asked me where can get those things. i suggested bugis street but you didnt know where it was, being someone who just arrived in sg for around 2mths and everyday is just work and home...

要盡地主之誼， 決定當他的導遊... 可是沒想到今天人手不足，得加班了...

希望會有我們同一天休息的那一天... :) haha

legs so suan today... :/ hais... tiring day... plus having slight cramps... menses coming le... sian... good thing today salesamount got tally... hehe...

noticed one thing, actually elynn is always keeping her eyes on lowell and me... esp when we are both working... observing our interaction... although i have alr emphasized there's nth on btw us... haha its damm funny i think...

life in gv became more interesting cuz of these events... haha...

pre results day...

tmr will be the day of the release of results... :/

super nervous... omg if i dun do well, i totally wont have mood to work le... maybe i should be like lowell and put off tmr... :p

please please, i must improve my grades... think i gonna lose sleep tonight...