another year has passed.
after the A's, now is the start of the uni life....
on second wk of uni, came up with some conclusions...
you'll meet a lot of ppl in uni, but in the end you'll still be alone.
everyone will be taking diff mods, even if taking the same major as everyone has different objectives.
even if taking the same mod, there are different lecture and tut slots...
so like me, taking 5 mods, only 2 mods with my og mates.
the rest of it, i'll be alone...
make new friends, ppl often say...
i feel, in the end will be making friends that u are not familiar with. we're just depending on each other for that particular mod and after 1 sem, it'll be annyeong hi ka sei yo (goodbye)
this feeling is weird and uncomfortable...
it's like you have a company but feeling empty inside...
there's no exactly someone u can confide to...
all my close friends are all separated... only me in sci fac and in particular, taking stats...
i'm really afraid that we'll become distant since i'm always the one who will say no to gatherings... i'm like the spoiler in plans.
ppl will like say, oh ching, wanna come for so and so... when i say nope, hoping they'll understand, but as time goes by, i feel that i'm having lesser invitations. i'm really sorry for making ppl feel restless on asking me out, cuz most of the time the answer will be no. but i feel so left out....
it's like giving up on me.... :(
dunno if i think too much but i often think this way...
*this post is gonna get emo...
me birthday today....
went to school for computing lesson. didnt get to meet any of my og mates cuz its a wed and we dun have common math mods... so = being alone.
when i reached home, bro asked, eh few years you come back home with few bags of presents, how come today dun have....
i gave him a weak smile...
i knew this would happen this year...
no school = no friends...
(i've not been sending presents too so it goes the same way...)
on brighter side, every year there's still bro with me, celebrating 17 years of birthday tgt...
we're like dependant on each other... we won't forget each other birthday like forever... haha
sincerely thank all those who wished me happy birthday!! even appreciate those who specially sms me (it's really more touching this way!), special thanks to yongsheng, for smsing me, really surprised that u will sms a freshie like me...
all the smses made my day, jas ang who is the first to sms me, qi ai de for the sweet msg, qijin for the touching comments...
kamsahamnida!!