Dec 2010

like long time since i've last blogged... haha.

now end of the year le, done a lot of reflecting... last year this time i was working... then was orientation then J1 studying... time flies... i dunno how it happened, but its 2011 soon... and A's ...

its the whole O's all over again. but this time with new buddies with me... my greatest achievement this year is to have met xinan, my qin ai de!!! haha. thanks for bringing joy to my life. :)

and there's also nan. really happy that we're in the same class. haha. :) :)

lovelife has been a dilemma for me... dun want to think abt. just let all remain its place. i seriously need to concentrate on my studies...

jiayou chingyee.. jiayou for revision, spent time well at home... time's short. treasure it!!

<3 all

in a dilemma...

yesterday, i saw shangyong's msg on fb... then i went on thinking, should i still go for the gv chalet? hais... i dunno wat to do... should i just avoid him? since everyone (i think) knew abt our relationship... furthermore, SF is shangyong's friend. so i think i should 避嫌 de. later spoil his mood and the others'. nw i dunno what they are thinking... how they are looking at me... ok, ching, the progress till this state is all your fault, you cannot blame anyone for this. if they all think that i'm a bad girl, 你也该认了。yes, i'm evil. i only break people's heart... so just dun have any 瓜葛with me...

to keep or to return...

左右为难

to sylvia...

haha, i noe u wont read this, i wanna talk to you but i guess we'll just have wait till next wk...

it seems from your blog that you have being quite moody these days... i dunno what happened. i really wanna ask...

its ok. just rmb that i'm just a sms away. this goes out to all my friends. dun hesitate to sms me k? i'll do my best to help. i may not be the first to know your situation, but i'll be the first to lend you my shoulder, my ear...

its my big day!!!

haha. the titile sounds funny... but who cares... :P

its official op tmr... the time to show what we've got!

suddenly though of the saying, 台上一分钟，台下十年功... all the hard work voice down to the half an hour of presentation...

its been a tiring and tough journey... it will become a nice memory for me. :) thanks guys for being my pw mates. :) love~

ps: specially for you, my qin ai de, if you were in time to see this...

jiayou k? may you be the best last speaker in the room tmr, giving the most impactful speech of your life. :) haha. dun worry. you still have us to lean on. jiayou. Show them your enthusiasm. show them what you've got! :P haha. you can do it de... :) dun be nervous, you must noe that everyone is as nervous as you. :) noe in your heart but dun show it. :P haha.

thats abt all. lets get A tgt!!! :)

nights~ may tmr be a nice day. :)

its been one month... last month today, i was depressed... totally dropping to the bottom of the cliff...

i dont noe wat can still comment about. but i really like to thank my friends for staying by me... preventing me for thinking too much...

what is most comforting is that cally still bothers to call on me, ask me whether i'm ok. i'm glad, i wasnt being felt disgusted by them... at least there's still someone on his side who still cares about me...

i shouldnt be going emo on this day le... i should be looking forward. jiayou ching!

4th Nov...

haha! its the grand opening of gv yishun! :) damm excited! it's like ages since i last stepped to gv... missed those days with colleagues... hais... anyway, still hope to see it soon. :)

hope that all of them are still fun and loving.... :)

damm sian, pw meeting... hais... miss lim's seeing us only at 1... waste my afternoon only... hope that it will be something insightful... :P

ps: I still love my pw group! :)

好想知道，你的一百分会给怎样的人。。。

~杨丞琳 （理想情人）

PW has made me learn quite a lot... through this experience, even though i've made some blunders here and there, but thanks to beverly, xinan, michelle and zz, i've successfully passed through half of it.

special mention to beverly, the pro. without u, we wont be able to come up with such a nice WR! <3 <3 :)

also, i'll like to take this opp to apologise to my dearest xinan... sorry... i dun dare say in front of u cuz it'll be damm awkward. anyway, hope u see this... sorry xinan, sorry for being so insensitive, and sometimes harsh in the midst of our pw, and even during school time. you noe i'm going through hard times, i tried to control my temper... thinking back, i guess i may have screwed it up... sorry. i think i've hurt ur feelings in some way...

i''m slow at such relationships problems (even though ms lim also thinks that girls put relationships as first priority...) please forgive me if i do anything wrong. u can be frank and correct me anytime. thanks!

WR submission

today's finally the day... after abandoning my blog for a while, i'm back posting.... with another mood...

handing in the WR, it's like a new chapter of my life... it took up much of my brain cells and blood. felt the rare sense of achievement when it was finally ready to be sent for printing (although i didnt go with ur... :P)

yet another mountain stands before me... OP... my dreaded fear. it's all in a blast... programmes arranged after my school term (can even say during)...

should list out b4 i missed out on any: Uni Panel Discussion @ 23Oct, Tkd Grading @ 31Oct, YCK camp @ 19-21Nov, Table tennis chalet @ 7-9Dec, 4109 BBQ @12Dec, GV Chalet @ 18-20Dec... Seems like a lot... i still have to catch up with studying in between (or else will get scolding again..) then again, i dun think i'll be able to go for all these, esp all the bbqs...

getting back my results slip on fri... not very looking forward... but it'll be my last CT session of the year... (should look happy, chingyee, you've successfully promoted without having to do r-papers. you should be happy)

time flies... it's the end of 2010 soon... many things have happened, both happy and sad... i've tried my best to bury all my sad stuff, be busy and not think abt it...

anyway, this post's getting long so i should stop...

jiayou to all pw chiong-ers! we're all in this together!

smiilesalways~

我想我很快就会变成一个只会哭的机器了。。。只要有一件伤心的事就会把全部的伤心事一起哭出来。。。

昨天是我第一次为你哭。。。看到那则简讯，眼泪当场流下。。。原来你已在我的心中根深蒂固了。。。要不是昨天有两位楠陪我，我不敢想象我会怎么离开哪里。。。 在商场哭了三次，在家里落泪了两次。。。刚才一个早上前前后后也有十次。。。会哭，一方面是因为对不起你，另一方面是因为要踏出你的圈子。。。

我不知道接下来会怎么样。。。 我想也只能麻醉自己了。。。像以前一样。。。拼命忙。晚上躺在床时就可以马上睡着，什么都不要想。。。 我不想每天都用肿胀的眼睛去面对大家。。。

像溪楠说的，这个月让我好好想想，'if you think he's nt worth it, then just give him up'。 我不知道我将来会不会有这个想法，但它不是我现在的选择。。。

其实要关心我是很简单的。。。一个简讯，一个慰问。。。我就很满足了。。。我从来没有要求什么，我只希望你能多关心我。。。 我其实很想了解你，但我不想问你，因为那就没有意义了。。。

现在这个期间我是不会去烦你了。。。就把所有的思念写在部落格里吧。。。头很痛，下线了。。

ps: 我刚设立了多一个部落格，里头都是信件， 有署名的

itsthemidstofthepromos...todaywillbeaweirdpost,soletthosewhounderstandreadba...haha

examstress...ithinkiscrewedupgp,butitsallover,watcanidoabtit?yesterdayiaskedqinaidewatarehisexpectationsforme...hesaygeteverythinghigherthanb...hethinkstoohighlyofme...thatswaticouldsay...i'mnotgod...

allicansayisididmybest,ididntletmyselfdown...reallywannathankthosewhoencouragedmeallthewaythroughthisjourney... :)thankyouverymuch.

liveeverydaytothefullest.:)waitingforthefunoutingswithmygirlfriendsafterpromos...haha.arealgettogetheri'mlookingforward.it'snicetohavefriendswhocare...
allthesemakesmethinkofmygvfriends...wenttoseetheconstructionworkytd..impressive...memorieskeepflowing...eventhoughi'veonlibeenthereforabt2mths,itseemslikeanotherhomeforme(maybecuzi'vebeenthereafewtimesb4workingthere:P)everytimeismellpopcorn,wenttoacinema,iwillthinkoftheenjoyabletimeworking,withallthedifferentcolleagues,eventhoughsomemayseenunfriendly...inoethattheyarenicepple,afunbatch:)hhaha,verygratefulforraymondforlettingmeinandmypaforallowingmetowork... haha:P

ok,shouldgetbacktostudying...seeingothersworkingsohardmakesmewannadowelltoo...

willblogagainsoon...hahathiswayofwritingisfun! :p

<3 smiilesalways~

唯有变强，才能保护你想保护的人。。。

i got this from xinan's blog...

我不想保护人。。。 我向被人保护。。。 :P
哈哈。。。 但必要时我还是会为我最爱的家人和朋友站出来。。。 thats wat friends are for... thats why humans are different from animals...

'Speak less to the people you love. If they cannot understand your silence, they won't understand your words'

i got this from xinlin's blog... haha, i thought it was quite meaningful... but then i always believe that its through communication that ppl noe each other better...

11.52...
it's the end of another hard day...

hais..
as the days are getting nearer and nearer, i'm getting more and more worried... :(
everyone's nervous, they seem prepared...

but i noe i'm not... :( hais...

11.53....
i should off the com soon, b4 my mum come out and scold me again...

goodnight everyone, may tmr be a better day...
jiayou everyone!
loves~

ps. smiilesalways~

如果你不知道自己做错了什么，那再多的道歉也是没用的。

或许你根本就不认为你有错。。。

算了吧。。。

SPAs~

Omg, its the SPA exam soon... stressed... have not been scoring well in the past few practices... hais.. hope i dun screw this up...

Jiayou to all taking SPA... (even though our sch is like the last to do...)


busy wk, packed with activities... need catching up in work...
i really cannot afford to have a break... just one day of fun leads to few days of horror...

btw nan said that she caught our cute bio teacher with his girlfriend at Suntec... haha. :P so qiao...


to my qin ai de, sorry... i may be neglecting you these days... but you are always in my mind... (dunno whether its gd or bad). thanks for standing by my side when i'm feeling low... thanks :)
i love you~

My meaningful birthday celebration!!

my birthday was celebrated one day earlier due to some other stuff on Sun.. Saturday was a day full of activities...
Morning was SLV, went to the housing estates in Dakota to help the old ppl living there... Nan, qin ai de and i went to tis ah ma's house to clean... helped to wipe the high window panes... was a tough job trying to clean the deep stains... had hands black, XN was worse than me... haha... ate packet lunch after cleaning then went SMU so see see look look then Heritage Fest finale...

went through the craft stalls, things were very pretty, prices is good damm high... haha but tis didnt kill the spirit of the NanS... haha. they both bought sth... :P

reported for duty after yami yogurt treat... :P haha... overall, XN and i slacked through... haha. but had fun... :) talking with the security guards there definitely helped. haha, they are a fun lot! :P great experience at Suntec as event facilitator (even though the guys keep suanning us to be free labour).

supposed to end shift at 8, haven had dinner... stupid manager nigel dun wanna let us go (haha, actually cuz got admin stuff to settle, he's nice though). XN's starting to act weird.. getting impatient, kept smsing... haha, but didnt notice anything wrong...

after dismissal, went second floor to see whether can find present for my bro, then XN said need to help her bro get sth, so went toys r us on third floor... just when we were leaving toys r us, she suddenly ran desperately, i saw she running toward nan, (i thought she left already?? why is she still at suntec?) i followed XN and ran out...


got a shock of my life... i saw Nan, sylvia, aikmeng n jiehui! omg, they are here just to celebrate my birthday!! i still made them wait for 1 hr (by the time i reached sky garden, was around 9 liao). was really touched... dropped a tear... i really didnt expect that to come... it's friends like them whom made my day... thanks guys! <3<3

i had a real meaningful birthday... i will always keep it in my memory de... :) i just think that i too gullible liao... days b4 sylvia n aikmeng still nice nice ask me how i spending my birthday, XN bluffing me say need help brother buy present...

once again, thanks guys... my besties! <3 always~ esp my qin ai de, xin ku ni le...
i'm not lonely this birthday after all... :)

National Day long wknd!!

ahh... finally a long wknd i'm looking for, can have a tinny winny bit of rest le...

rest my eyes, rest my tired muscles... hais, i think i'm aging fast liao, everywhere also pain... :P must take care! jiayou!

EOM, Bio Model, GP Compre, Math Functions, Chem OC... wknd must chiong finish! (even though i doubt i can finish...)

Next wk, even though will be a short school wk, but it will still be a stressful one, tutors chiong notes and tutorials, hais, we are still the suffering lot... :(

nv mind, should enjoy this wknd de, at least i had great meals these few day, thurs night chilli crab, yesterday night curry chicken, tonight curry fish head... haha, getting heaty liao... :P

haha, should sign off le. mum's suaning me again.. :P

<3 qin ai de, goodnight~ :)
smiilesalways...

Abt 060810

yesterday was my qin ai de's birthday!!! haha, so happy!
又老了一岁哦！！ :P haha.
hope u had a great birthday celebration on thurs n yesterday. :)

haha, started planning since abt a mth ago... :p looked for cally n discussed some stuff... haha, some original plans changed but nevertheless, it was great fun. :) haha, hope u liked the present! special right? :P haha...

祝你健康，永远快乐。:) 我爱你。

T3W5

its been super long since i last posted... busy busy busy, typical excuse...

time management, thats wat the teachers n mentors always say... actually, its true, time management will help to a certain extent. its strange, there's always time to rest, eat and have fun... but not enough time for other stuff... hais......

life's meaningless without you... it's cuz of you that i moved on, with all my might...


mid-years are bad, just except for math, thankfully... have to really study hard and buck up for promos liao, which is like 60more days...
hais... time flies... jiayou jiayou.


this wk should be exciting... :P qin ai de's birthday... :p haha. looking forward to fri... thurs got blood donation drive... haha. excited liao...

currently finding new article for EOM... hope i find it soon. so tat i can faster start work, have to hand in after the long wknd...

pbl, jiayou jiahao. thanks. :)


ps. i find that i like to complain quite a lot, i really should cut this habit...
today, nan commented tat i was too fierce talking to the teacher, but i am really not... hais... i should reflect on my tone... can cuz serious misunderstandings de... must change!

Post exam activities....

been almost a mth since i last posted sth... haha. multiple reasons...

but now, end of mid years, feel quite screwed... sian. yesterday's paper was the killer, if only i have enough time... hais... now think too much also no use le, its over...

yesterday after exams went kbox wif nan, jas n xinan... had great 5hrs tgt... :)(haha actually is more than 3 hrs...) reached home at 7plus, got a suaning plus scolding session by my mum n she taoing me now.... sian... i just kept quiet when she talked, couldnt find anything to rebut her (more specific to say, to avoid argument wif her or i'll still be at the losing end)...

today day off... staying at home... alone with the com... haha. 难得亲爱的今天休息，我却不可以和他见面。。。 想念你。。。最近很少听到你的消息，你还好吗？ 其实如果你真的有心，可以到我家楼下见我的。。。 :P

next wk will be the start of lessons liao... dun like... dun understand why the school want to put mid years after the june hols... hais... no choice, this is life... 幸好有你。。。 :P

tues, meina's birthday celebration... haha so looking forward, but then.... hais... ur present... haha, shouldnt disappoint u de, i will try my best to bring it. :P


june is the time when i have to reaccumulate all my cash after the break... just realise that i'm in quite a deep debt. haha. :P

its all my fault... should watch my spending.... :P

jiayou for all studying for mid years! :P

haha

smiiles

Cally's 21st

went for cally's 21st birthday on fri, 11/06, was quite fun... esp the fact that i can see my ex-collegues n my qin ai de... quality time spent. :)

hope that can see them more. they are fun ppl. :) haha...

this wked my qin ai de very busy, so i shouldnt annoy him :P
dun tire urself out. :)

(i got sth to tell u, erm i may not be able to meet u often for the next two wks le. sorry :(
dunno whether u will be able to see this... )

<3 smiiles

Went to Xinan's house for her bday surprise on wed morning... its not really a morning ba... just tat she still haven wake up at the time we reached...

haha, almost lost our way on the way into her house... haha, i having serious stm liao... :P

xinan's bday... 08/06
my darling's bday... 06/08
wat a coincidence.... :p

bdays bdays..... i suddenly feel that those born in june are very lucky, most ppl are available to help celebrate wif them...
next wk going for Meina's bday celebration. haha, quite looking forward... my friends for more than half my life... <3

early bday wishing to cally, happy 21st. :)



seeya soon, my darling... :P

been at the 'create post' pg of 3 hrs n written nth. haha...

discussing GPP with beverly, but doesnt seem productive...

june hols...
i need to start studying!!! seriously, i shouldnt be online...
last wk, 3 consecutive days of more than 6hrs of com is killing me...
now, no amt of sleep is gonna help... i'm damm dead, all because of HBL... sian

this mth's schedule, packed? not really, yah, it's damm packed... i also dunno how to describe... it's packed as compared to my previous years' june schedule. but it's ok as compared to some of my friends'...
hais... god, i dun wish much, i onli hope that i can finish revising everything n sail through my mid years... so that i can enjoy my post exams...





do u think that i'm very selfish?
i dunno... i'm confused...
sometimes i'm afraid to hear the answer...
i would choose rather not to think abt it, but i cant help it!

there are many things that i'm not used to saying out...
no matter to who the person is...
there are some things i can mouth out easily, some things i nv will...
i hate my coward self... i'm procrastinating...

okok, i'm getting emo... STOP IT!
concentrate on loving, giving and receiving... in no matter what you do.
be your best in everything, n make sure that you dun regret. Jiayou chingyee!




this post is getting long n maybe nonsensical... but the best is always saved for the last... for my sweetheart... haha :P
working 6 days this wk is tough work, esp in this long wknd with damm lots of patrons. nevertheless, must rmb to think of me. haha. :p but if u get scolded by manager cuz u were not concentrating cannot blame me hor.:P hehe i noe that wont happen de... :p
love u, smiiles~ :)

祝 xinan 一路顺风。 :)

have a nice trip n make lots of new friends. :)

must remember to think of me and nan once in a while hor. :P haha.
but think of him more... :p if u are thinking of him n forget abt us, we wont mind de. haha. :P

presents mah... see anything nice then buy ba, i dun mind... :P most impt is to take gd care of urself n have loads of fun. take a lot of pics hor... :)

love u. smiles~
i will miss u de... :p

today early release must rest well. :)

seeya soon...

Looking forward to seeing you...

sorry for yesterday...

Tkd lunch

yesterday had lunch at astons', Suntec....
quite happy to be able to get tgt wif seniors. :)

they announced the results of exco after the lunch.
I got in, n congrets to those in exco.
for those who didnt make it, dun be too sad....
(ps, xinan, u noe u can still count on me :p)

new post, new commitments, i need to put in more effort to prove myself... jiayou. :)

today's HBL, looking at the pile of things to do...
damm sian le... dunno where to start. maybe i should do sth that i'm gd at...

tmr got exco meeting, seniors passing down their stuff to us... going back sch to decorate noticeboard.

thurs going shopping with xinan n nannan. :) looking forward. hope that u will have an enjoyable trip to swiss, dun miss me too much hor. :P haha.

for my qin ai de, dun mia in my phone can? :P even though u r in my heart doesnt mean thats enough. :P haha. i noe u are busy lar, shouldnt disturb u too much de... :P loves~

A short story....

从前有一个小岛
上面住着快乐、悲哀、知识，还有爱

一天

情感们得知小岛快要下沉了
于是
大家都准备船只，离开小岛
只有爱留了下来，
她想坚持到最后一刻

过了几天
小岛真的要下沉了
爱想请人帮忙

这时
富裕乘着一艘大船经过。
爱说：“富裕，你能带我走吗？”
富裕答道：“不，我的船上有许多金银财宝，没有你的位置。”

爱看见虚荣在一艘华丽小船上，“虚荣，帮帮我吧！”
“我帮不了你。你全身都湿透了，会弄坏我这漂亮的小船。”

悲哀过来了，爱向她求助：“悲哀，让我跟你走吧！”
“哦……爱，我实在太悲哀了，想自己一个人呆一会儿！”悲哀答道。

快乐走过爱的身边，但是她太快乐了，竟然没有听见爱在叫她！

突然，一个声音传来：“过来，爱，我带你走。”
这是一位长者。
爱大喜过望，竟忘了问他的名字。
登上陆地以后，长者独自走开了。

爱对长者感恩不尽，问另一位长者知识：“帮我的那个人是谁？”

“他是时间。”知识老人答道。
“时间？”爱问道：“为什么时间要帮我？”

知识老人笑道：“因为只有时间才能理解爱有多伟大。”
(adapted fm wangzhe's blog)

this makes me think a lot...
quite meaningful...

tkd competition...

tkd competition's over, all our hard work comes down to just the less than five minutes of performance...

it was an enriching experience for me though... even though i hadto go to the same place for 3 days...

dunno whether to be happy or sad, but our A div team got overall 4th for both guys n girls. our seniors were all crying. i think maybe we didnt work hard enough or sth went wrong,. nv mind, there's still next year...
saturday's nationals was... this event taught me the difference btw the main team n me. now i noe where i stand, even though i was quite disappointed to not get into the final round, i was still glad that the main team ppl got sth for the sch...
sunday,... all i could say is everything went like a whoosh... our event was arranged at 5.35, but it was pushed forward like 1plus hour b4, the team had to rush there like .... wohh, we would have been disqualified... gd thing we made it in time.
in the end we got overall 4th, is this result gd? i dunno... all i could say is that we could have done better...

my first medal in vj, i will treasure it de. :)

sadly, i injure my toe yesterday b4 the first round of competition, its like bleeding n i have to continue. my senior came to ask whether i'm ok, i think i should be... :p haha. its just a small injury, but its damm ugly...



today is full day!!! should enjoy. :) hope that my qin ai de will have a gd day too. :) smiiles.

Damm sian diao today, slept 4 hrs (1.30-5.30am)

super tired... even though the com team didnt do very well as expected, i still wanna say, a job well done for all. :) we are all proud of u all...

was at bedok sports hall fm 9-6... tired... took 2 20 mins nap, neck super pain (i noe my posture was wrong)

this wknd burned, have to spend it at bedok sports hall, hope that it will be fruitful... jiayou!





sometimes i was thinking, 'you let me die better, it will be faster this way, dun torture me like that'...

had a little quarrel with my mum regrading by PW work. GPP get rejected, have to redo... hais, dunno have to burn how many more nights of midnight oil...



completed Chem video project, finally, another burden dropped. hope that it turns out well. thanks to Enjing for helping me for the start of the project, xinan n nannan for ur moral support, pei me until so late... thanks.




sometimes it's not that i wanna think too much, when i'm alone, i tend to think a lot. the more i try to not think abt u, the more u come to my mind... ok, fine, it's my fault, everything is my fault!!!

Jiayou for all competitors for tkd later!!!



haha finally finish Chem video. :)
nights!

Chem project last sprint!!

Jiayou jiayou. got xinan n nannan give me moral support, should be can de. (at least thats wat i hope so...)

thanks nannan for your msg. i'm super touched, even i'm so mean to u sometimes... i'm really happy to have a friend like u...

Xinan, my qin ai de...
thanks for staying by, haha (hope that u can tahan) i think i'm also quite bad to ask u to stay online wif me. :p love u! :p

Why do you give me the feeling that you dun wanna talk to me?
smses getting lesser...
maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe you are just busy...

sometimes i feel that i dun really noe u very well, this makes me feel insecure, although i try not to think abt it so much. Syl's right, i should try to noe u more, but i dun wanna be a stalker...

hais... so contradicting...
ok, i shouldnt bother u too much, i dun want u(and everyone else)to find me annoying.
mental note: be more independant! dun always complain, even though they r fine wif it now, dun take it for granted!

qin ai de, wat are u doing now? working i suppose... smile more, smoke less :p must think of me... :P

Sorry, i hurt You

sorry, i really didnt mean it. i guess i'm really too dumb.
i dun mean to hurt u...

i'm very bad at this...
i wish u could scold me to show ur displeasure...
it's my fault, it's all my fault...

im sorry that i hurt u, really sorry...
i wish that there's sth that i could to do...
but it's like how much i tried to save, hurt has already been inflicted... it can nv heal. even if u dun feel pain, the scar will still remain, constantly reminding u that this damage existed...

this is so cruel...

i need to confess, i'm being very annoying these days...
so i try not to show my 'mood' in front of them...
jus leave me alone, i noe its sounds very cruel.. it's jus that i keep saying the wrong stuff, indirectly hurting some ppl... i cant help it...

Sian... mood swing... damm serious... makes me exhausted...

hope that it will get better...
n sry for all those who have suffered cuz of my 任性 n bad temper

i wanna sleep but i cant... damm sian...
not in good mood these days... even though bbQ was fun, but... hais...

projects projects projects
tests tests tests
lesson lesson lesson

'm getting sick n tired of this... everyone's getting sick... including me, lovesick, cough, headache, muscle-ache... like a living zombie...

my routine: wake up, go sch, have lessons, eat, have lessons, cca, home, hw, sleep

the pressure's on, with deadline getting closer n closer, competition day reaching soon... everyone's frustrated... or maybe it's jus me...

ok, back to work now...
ps: qin ai de, get well soon :P

Labour Day long wknd... is it really long?

Firstly, happy labour day to all working ppl out there. some of ur may still be working but nv mind, jus remember that today will be a fun day! smiiles :)

this long wknd, a hectic schedule....
lots of things to complete, short of time...
today, the thing i'm looking forward to is bbQ!! waiting for this day to come for a very long period of time le!! everyone is! haha...
Sunday, going xinan's house...
to do chem project (sian)
haha, but looking on the bright side.... it will be fun, right? :P
Monday, tkd extra training...
competition is abt 3 wks away, everyone's working hard. i think i should too...

HW for the week
Math take home test
Math maxima minima tutorial
Bio organelles tutorial
Econs Elasticity Section B tutorial
PBL 3
PW GPP
Chem project
Econs Critique (KIV)

Lastly, I MISS MY QIN AI DE! <3
dun always tire urself out. remember to have gd rest! smiiles :)
Love u! :P

11.48pm missing u...
11.49pm rushing PI (final)
11.50pm thinking that u are waiting for me, should wrap up soon.

11.55pm thought that tmr got GP 3 period lesson. sian...
11.56pm tmr afternoon got exco election, hope i get in. quite nervous abt election.. :P
11.57pm word count for PI 500words (yeah!!!)
11.58pm worried abt whether PI will pass or not... sian
11.59pm showing xinan my PI. thanks for staying by. :)
12.00pm PRINT

12.15pm shut down

Speech Day!!! 160410

OAS!!

yesterday was damm memorable...
start of school, waiting for school to end.
end of school, waiting for event to start, to reach my 'home' asap.
start of event, hoping that the night will not end...

sadly all good things have to come to an end...
i should be happy that i managed to see most of my friends. :)
camwhoring... (haha, actually not really)
hugs...
chatting...

i miss anderson!! (haha, maybe is the ppl there that i miss n not really the school)

i thought i wont get emotional...
but i guess i overestimated myself...
i cant believe that i even dropped tears when i see them, esp wang zhe...
狮子座，我超想你的。。。 miss bickering wif u, miss suanning u...
这阵子你失踪到哪里了? ziying也是一样。。。

seeing syl get emotional too also make me wanna cry another time... (but i didnt haha)

why do we cherish the things that we have lost? how ironic is that?
we take things for granted, thinking that they will always be there; regret after we have lost n wanna make up for them, everything is too late. all is left are onli memories...

memories... the thing that you may forget but not me...

hais...
i guess i should be contented wif life, as long as i think of you, everything will be fine, no matter how tough school work is, how much it hurts to be quarelling wif my family, as long as i have u... :)

Procrastination...

Ms lim returned my PI today... i noe that i didn do a good job. now i have to amend my first draft... still deciding whether to do or not..

Sian... Skin condition getting worse... looking damm ugly le.:P
maybe i should consider putting on a mask haha...

today dunno whats wrong wif me. ppl around me can feel my change... i keep 'shooting' ppl today. like keep suaning them... i felt quite bad... maybe too stressed up le. finding some entertainment... (but thats a bad excuse, building my happiness on others' misery...)i even sort of like openly rebut my CT leh. come to think of it, i feel quite bad... asked my friends for their view on this matter, they said i did the right thing, she cant expect us to really follow whatever she want us to do for SLV... as a teacher, she have to rebut me back to 'win' me or else will look quite malu for her. haha... maybe i should have just shut my mouth... what if she had a bad impression on me? thinking that i'm a defiant girl?

aiya, words i said out cant be taken back. i just hope that she wont take it so seriously...

to top it off, i even 'shoot' my qin ai de!! i felt quite bad... dunno how to decribe... jus not in the right state of mind today, like 得罪了很多人... sorry to all who was affected by my words. :(


omg, this post is getting too wordy... i should get back to my PBL le. Jiayou! :)

PBL!!!

offically hated pbl!
3hrs online n seems that nth is done... hais...

note to self: faster finish posting n go sleep le.
i'm so happy that u r waiting for me. :) i love u! <3

in sch heard a lot abt kia's problems... felt quite sry for her, maybe i should do sth for her, like push AM a bit... dunno whether it will help...

just hope that everything kia done for him has 'rewards'. jiayou, u can do it de! i'll be there giving u moral support. trust ur instincts. dun let urself regret... dun cry le...

should end here, ny qin ai de waiting for me in dreamland. haha. :)

Tkd grading :D

yesterday went for tkd grading in the morning... everything just ended b4 i could think abt it. it's jus u complete ur pattern, u can go sort of thing... haha :P hope that everyone made it pass. :)

brought breakfast to him later in the morning, gd thing i made it on time. haha. so happy to see him :)

spent 3hrs on the com trying to complete my PW PI first draft, n i simply cant finish it!!! thinking of u n doing sth else doesnt seem to be effective for me. haha. MUST concentrate! hope that i can finish it by tonight...

jus received the invitation for speech day! so excited. can go back to see my friends le :) I'm OAS!

Good Friday...

Happy good friday...

why is it called a good friday when tis day is not good for me?
Tonnes of work piling up... Haiz...
PBL 2
Chem e-assessment
Bio e-assessment
PW PI
Maths sampling tutorial
Maths AP tutorial

mental note: focus, dun digress...

jiayou jiayou, i can complete de

XN was still laughing at me yesterday that i will have a hard time completing my sampling tutorial cuz i didnt listen to the lecture at all. haha. i think she might have said right... i really stuck, esp need to write explaination. i can onli count math equations, not explain problems...
looking on the bright side, she wont be any better than me... she was also not listening to the lecture... haha, she was more interested in the phone n talking to me than listening to the lecturer. lol :p (i should stop critisizing... haha, i'm getting evil...)

good friday...
i wont be a good friday if i cannot meet u... i miss u... :(

Projects!!

Projects are killing me!!!

terrible headaches, should be lack of sleep, tats wat i tell myself. jiayou, you can make it through de. it's just a stupid 7% of mid year, do ur best n dun regret. u r the one who made tis decision, u have to live with it, no matter u like it or not...

seriously hope that the headaches will jus poof disappear. it's affecting me! hard to concentrate during lectures and tutorials... gd thing the pain will ease a bit whenever i think of u... thks for being there. :)

note to self: treat urself better, dun let work control ur life..

今天心情很不好，昨晚睡不好，因为你。。。

你说你很不开心，是为什么呢?
因为我没有告诉你我叫他陪我去Bishan, 还是听到他说要追我。。。

如果是第一个原因，那我就要跟你说对不起，是我的疏忽。我本来要告诉你的，可是当你听到他要来找我是，脸色变了，我就想还是少说好了。。。当你责问我时，我就知道他已经告诉你了。。。

如果是第二个原因，那我觉得是你多心了。他要来找我的事，我又告诉一个朋友，她也说他八成是要追我，我也不以为意，因为我根本不相信。我觉得它是故意说给你听的，加盐加醋，说什么坐在我身边很爽，和我一直传简讯，根本就是在说谎。。。何况他什么表示也没有，是你告诉我我才知道的。。。

我只是把他当普通朋友。。。

我的心很小的，只可以装下你，只爱你。





早上起床势头很痛，心更痛。。。

今天被老妈念了两句，很不服气。
'你不需要买课外书吗？人家还有补习leh'
'我知道，我有朋友在补习'
'你又不要去问你的同学他们买什么书。。。'
'aiya,不要买了lar'
'你读不好两年后就跟我去做工hor,不用读了！'

我听了对你感到很失望，很生气，你怎么可以这样说呢？！
你明明知道我要上大学的，而且我也说过了，a lvl cert在外面之找不到好工作的，比poly的diploma还差。
你这么说是什么意思呢?! 难道我不够用功吗？你有必要这么打击我吗?! 从小学到现在我都没有补过习，凭自己的实力让你和爸爸为我感到骄傲，不要给人看不起，有错吗？你真得让我很失望。。。

昨天心情不好，因此想见你。。。不管怎么样，都想见到你，虽然晚上不能一起出去，但能吃一顿午餐也不错。哈哈，做人应该知足的。。。

回到家有被念了几句，说什么吃饭为什么这么久。。。哈哈，和你在一起时间当然过得很快啊！ :p

希望能快点再见到你。。。


ps.不要常常熬夜，要常笑哦！ :P

我真的不知道那是不是爱，在爱情方面，我知道我不可以向你这么勇敢。。。
你对我好，喜欢我，这些我都知道，但我并不像到最后让彼此都受伤。。。
我承认我是个很胆小的人，我并没有足够的勇气去面对这些，

就算我


承认对你有些好感。。。

New year, new changes...

it's time for changes, and i don't know whether i'm ready for it.
everything seems to feel weird and scary for me.
i have been having countless sleepless nights, from the day b4 the release of the o's results.
going to a new school, a new environment, making new friends.... they all seem so out of place for me. i really wonder if i could cope wif all these.

i guess, the older i am, the more timid i become. As the number of days we are friends become longer, the harder it is for us to seperate. i hate changes! i really really hate them!!!

right now i need to make a decision, the school that i am goin to go. this decision may change my viewpoint, my personality, and maybe even my future....

the unforeseen future....

i worry about so many stuff, whether i could cope wif the stress, the homework, projects and lectures, whether i could make new friends in the new school, whether my new friends would like me, and whether my old friends would remember me...
the seperation fm pri sch to sec sch has drawn many of us apart. we didnt even know wat to say to each other when we met. i really dont want this to happen....

i cannot tell all these to my parents, i dont want them to worry, or to see the timid side of me. i want to leave the nice and thoughtful girl impression on them, always striving for best results to make them feel proud of me.

what can i do? i want to find someone to talk to, but who?

My first part time job

quite excited about being able to work, its a work place that i feel comfortable wif. :)

everyone seems so nice, and friendly.
i also made new friends, i not sure why, but i feel tat i could get along better wif the male colleagues. time seems to past faster when they are around, SF, JC, EJ, BG, and some others... they are all nice ppl. it's always fun talking to them, through the suanning and joking.... :)

time flies when we're having fun. school's going to start soon, and i would sure be missing all my colleagues. dunno if i would be able to see them when i go back during the school hols...