blogging in the middle of the lesson...

my inferior mind getting worked up again... i really hate the cold shoulder treatment that ppl are giving me... suddenly emo-ing and felt this strongly...

is it really my problem?!?!?!
this is so unfair!!!
i dunno why i cant seem to get close to ppl? i can really say that i nv really made friends in uni... those i've met so far as merely acquaintants...

the sad truth... lonely soul...
i think i may fall to depression too... :/

wk10 turning to wk11...

time really flies....
in a month's time i'll be having my first finals in uni life and then it's the end of the semester...

have been through a lot these few months...
from not knowing anyone till making new friends...
seeing nan and qin ai de leaving sg...

friends come and go, leaving a mark in my heart...
carrying it with me wherever i go...
sometimes i would wonder, what will it be like if so-and-so was here with me...
would the outcome be different...
i would never know...

it's not like on tv, this wk running man's ep that you can see the future and change it...
life only happens once and the only thing i can do is to treasure it...

grandma was admitted to the hospital on fri... :(
intestinal issues... unable to shit for more than a wk...
was found to have a tumor in her stomach near the lungs area...
surgery is required... quite worried... haven been to the hospital to see her, how she'll recover soon...
quite unhappy with the hospital service...

sidetrack: this will be a long post...

had practical exam 2 for computing today...
attempted the questions quite ok but found out some errors last min so was unable to rectify before time's up...
nevertheless, i just hope for the best results...

next wk will be a busy wk...
it just gets busier when the weeks pass...
tue have k assignment test... supposed to write an 'essay' with the given topic...
(have to start memorising the vocab soon!!!)
wed with k skit...
hope that rehearsal will be productive tomorrow...
my role is a quire girly girly, haha a bit not my image but the lines are relatively easy i guess...
:P

got to start revising soon!~
been reminding myself to study but the reality is always different...

jiayou everyone!!

~smiilesalways

recess wk day 1

late at night while i'm still awake....

normally when i got the feel to write a post is either when i'm happy or i'm sad...
(usually the latter... this time without exception...)
got a twitter post from esmond about CS1010 PE test results....
when to check out of curiosity, then immediately crumbled and died on the spot...

 the results was freaking bad!!! tears almost burst out...
freaking sad!!! :'(
i know that i've made a mistake in the exercise 2 but then i didn't expect it to be so bad!!!
only half of the test cases were correct and my presentation was wrong just because of 'branch' and 'Branch"!!! if they penalize the capitalisation part then i only have one test case right!!!

i was still expecting to get 8 out of the 10% for this practical exam, which is already quite a lousy score...
now i guess i'm just going to pass this thing... :( putting me at the lower ranking!!! :( what to do.... :(
what to do...
what to do....
what to do....


:'(
typing all these make me wanna cry even more!!!
have i not put in enough hard work so u are punishing me with this?!
#sadlifeofaunikid...

shit...
:(
the lump on my neck is starting to hurt again when i press on it... :(
what if its really cancer?

cannot post this on twitter cuz very weird so just post it here...
:(

countdown: seven days till departure... :(
side note: i miss nan... i'll miss qin ai de too...

wk4 ended...

ended wk 4 of lesson....
was super crazy... :( super tired and a lot of stuff stacking up....
mostly homework....

so many work, so little time for friends.
always alone... -.-
sianz.... super tiring life in uni...
stressed!

haiz... computing suddenly all the exercises coming, every mod got stuff to hand in, making sure that we are doing our work... practical exams in two wks time!!! omg...

:(:(:(:( been crying lately, lack of sleep also leading to my dry eyes...
need to buy eyedrops!! :(

nan's flying soon le...
met jas on the mrt today! haha heard from her that qin ai de's flight's in midnight... :(
hais... hope can meet her before she flies off!!!

ok, back to studying...