new decisions, new beginnings...

received a msg from my dearest qin ai de of her decision...
it's a very good decision, without worries of financial support, with so many people supporting her (read from her blog)...


left a draft msg on my phone... 
actually wanted to post on twitter but on second thought it's too emo so i'll just post here:
' I shed a tear for u upon the news... 不舍的眼泪，为你开心，为离别难过...'
祝你幸福...
 

been getting fat this few months working here...

constantly hearing my mum complaining about my weight...
i seriously want to lose weight but then i'm not the kind that will lose weight easily...

i dun even know how i gain them, since my eating habits have not really changed...
(insert sad face)

My qin ai de was sms-ing me, expressing her love for me...
that's so sweet of her~ :)
haha... <3 <3

Congrats on her passing her btt... all the best for ftt and have fun at your practical lessons!! :)
I'll be going for practical test soon... haha next month...
i've basically finished on the learning part, just have to improve on skills aspect and minimize error...

huimin has passed her prac and nicole's coming behind me with her ftt being tmr...
i have to make my parents proud! haha (one time pass!) :P

Met up with nan, yujia, sylvia and quek on sat. took off from work to go the nus science open house...
had more insights on the different majors, contemplating on either applied math or stats major...
(even though the part about a lot of PRCs there is the dislike point)
the overseas exposure part sounds so fun and interesting...
after i went back home to sound out with my mum, she didnt sound to be of disapproval so that's a good start... maybe i have some hope... haha.

nan and yujia going for chem, one trying for fst and the other going for applied chem, but it's still chem...
saw hongaik at nus when the event ended. i guess he went for the chem talk too... haha.

kia's still thinking of which school to go... my guess is she'll go nus acc and new media double degree...
(her options: smu law and ntu biz and acc with college scholarship)
quek almost dozed off with the math talk... didnt have much chance to talk to him though... haha maybe he'll accept a biz degree, since thats' what he got offered from ntu and smu...
he still has 2 years so he can still think about it so...

heard ivan's going fass, from what yujia told me... quite shocking...

haha, met leqin and weixuan at fos.
weixuan came with his gf... didnt get to see her though... :p we had a brief talk, he applied medicine but didnt get in, so is looking at life sciences...
leqin surprisingly was there! haha. she's going overseas to take life science degree with scholarship but her sis didnt make it so she'll be staying in SG... a bit sad... sister rivalry and then there's a clear winner... haha. :p (i'm so mean to say that...)

haha, may everyone get to a course that they like! :)

wow, 1 month since i last posted...
already accepted NUS Science. Hope i'll meet nice course mates.

haha but then again, nan's leaving for HK uni... :(
very she bu de... hais...
have to tell myself all good things will come to an end. I'm really fortunate to meet her, know her and become friends with her... i will really cherish this friendship forever...

Next is my qin ai de...
she haven really decide, or she has decided le but nv tell me/i didnt ask her...
most likely going warwick... it's good for her to go overseas to gain exposure...
hais... the sad truth... long time since i last met my qin ai de...

Dare to pursue your dreams...
for me, i'm still wondering around... what will i do in the future...
i have no idea yet... i just know this life journey will go on no matter what...

slacking at work...

blogging while at work, using this period of calmness of call queues.

have been used to the work here with occasional seeking of advice from seniors but its normal since even the seniors are asking the TLs. Haha.

i have friends getting new jobs, wondering if i should too. like teach tuition, not so tiring i think...
haha. ytd met up with kia, quek and nicole, talked a lot of crap till we didnt notice the time... haha it's often the case when we meet up with friends but somehow my parents dun understand it.

uni course acceptance letters starting to be sent out... i believe some of us really know what they want and are just waiting for that only school to reply them. for me, i dunno why, even though currently i received smu accountancy and nus science acceptance, i'm still expectantly waiting for ntu to reply...

so ironic, nus is most recognised and i'm like having second thoughts to it. my father was like telling me, u want to go nus right? then why u still wait for ntu to reply? lol

i really dunno. i'm damm bad at making decisions for myself, maybe cuz i'm scared of making decisions as i always make the wrong decisions. simple things like whether to take which route home, what time to leave house, should i eat or bathe first. i'm always making the wrong choice, causing me to be at the losing end. :(((

maybe deep down in me i feel that ntu mathematical sciences is more interesting?
hais, or i dun mind taking accountancy?
or cuz taking nus science is too unsecure and i have to make decisions in year 2.
or cuz of the school fees?

so many this and that...
maybe my deep down fear is uncertainty...