New year, new changes...

it's time for changes, and i don't know whether i'm ready for it.
everything seems to feel weird and scary for me.
i have been having countless sleepless nights, from the day b4 the release of the o's results.
going to a new school, a new environment, making new friends.... they all seem so out of place for me. i really wonder if i could cope wif all these.

i guess, the older i am, the more timid i become. As the number of days we are friends become longer, the harder it is for us to seperate. i hate changes! i really really hate them!!!

right now i need to make a decision, the school that i am goin to go. this decision may change my viewpoint, my personality, and maybe even my future....

the unforeseen future....

i worry about so many stuff, whether i could cope wif the stress, the homework, projects and lectures, whether i could make new friends in the new school, whether my new friends would like me, and whether my old friends would remember me...
the seperation fm pri sch to sec sch has drawn many of us apart. we didnt even know wat to say to each other when we met. i really dont want this to happen....

i cannot tell all these to my parents, i dont want them to worry, or to see the timid side of me. i want to leave the nice and thoughtful girl impression on them, always striving for best results to make them feel proud of me.

what can i do? i want to find someone to talk to, but who?