我真的不知道那是不是爱，在爱情方面，我知道我不可以向你这么勇敢。。。
你对我好，喜欢我，这些我都知道，但我并不像到最后让彼此都受伤。。。
我承认我是个很胆小的人，我并没有足够的勇气去面对这些，

就算我


承认对你有些好感。。。

New year, new changes...

it's time for changes, and i don't know whether i'm ready for it.
everything seems to feel weird and scary for me.
i have been having countless sleepless nights, from the day b4 the release of the o's results.
going to a new school, a new environment, making new friends.... they all seem so out of place for me. i really wonder if i could cope wif all these.

i guess, the older i am, the more timid i become. As the number of days we are friends become longer, the harder it is for us to seperate. i hate changes! i really really hate them!!!

right now i need to make a decision, the school that i am goin to go. this decision may change my viewpoint, my personality, and maybe even my future....

the unforeseen future....

i worry about so many stuff, whether i could cope wif the stress, the homework, projects and lectures, whether i could make new friends in the new school, whether my new friends would like me, and whether my old friends would remember me...
the seperation fm pri sch to sec sch has drawn many of us apart. we didnt even know wat to say to each other when we met. i really dont want this to happen....

i cannot tell all these to my parents, i dont want them to worry, or to see the timid side of me. i want to leave the nice and thoughtful girl impression on them, always striving for best results to make them feel proud of me.

what can i do? i want to find someone to talk to, but who?

My first part time job

quite excited about being able to work, its a work place that i feel comfortable wif. :)

everyone seems so nice, and friendly.
i also made new friends, i not sure why, but i feel tat i could get along better wif the male colleagues. time seems to past faster when they are around, SF, JC, EJ, BG, and some others... they are all nice ppl. it's always fun talking to them, through the suanning and joking.... :)

time flies when we're having fun. school's going to start soon, and i would sure be missing all my colleagues. dunno if i would be able to see them when i go back during the school hols...

大考后的第一天

十一月十四 晴
今天，大考后的第一天， 有种失落感。。。好像突然之间失去了生活的目的，人就是这么三心二意的。当拥有时却忽略它的好，失去后才来后悔。

昨天和朋友去逛街买衣服，下星期二的毕业舞会还蛮期待的。这可是大家最后的聚会， 满依依不舍的，不知道大家的心情如何？

LAst Day of school

Last day of sch in Anderson, quite sad and 舍不得.
I was touched by the video of the teachers' best wishes. They say that teachers in JC and polys wont be so nice and caring towards the students.....

I hate changes, i am reluctant to changes. I dun like to change an environment i'm used to. i guess tis is life. LIfe has to go on. the earth would not stop revolving if you were to stay on the original spot and do nothing.

Went to VJ yesterday, with nicole, sylvia, xinlin, aikmeng n weixuan. Quite an interesting trip. Even though VJ is not as impressive as i thought, it was quite a good experience, my bro said that i may meet yufang there, but quite disappointed not being able to see her, maybe IP students are not involved in the open house...

the performance put up by the performing arts was impressive, esp the dance n the band. eve n though i did not hear the choir sing, i think it is quite good from the awards they won.
had light dinner with them at a hawker centre near parkway parade. so glad that aikmeng's parents were willing to fetch us home. reached home at 10+. mum was quite upset that i was home so late...

haiz, dun think bout it anymore. i should be mugging right now. got a mountain full of homework and tonns of revision to do. Jiayou jiayou to all. Happy mugging....