今天心情很不好，昨晚睡不好，因为你。。。

你说你很不开心，是为什么呢?
因为我没有告诉你我叫他陪我去Bishan, 还是听到他说要追我。。。

如果是第一个原因，那我就要跟你说对不起，是我的疏忽。我本来要告诉你的，可是当你听到他要来找我是，脸色变了，我就想还是少说好了。。。当你责问我时，我就知道他已经告诉你了。。。

如果是第二个原因，那我觉得是你多心了。他要来找我的事，我又告诉一个朋友，她也说他八成是要追我，我也不以为意，因为我根本不相信。我觉得它是故意说给你听的，加盐加醋，说什么坐在我身边很爽，和我一直传简讯，根本就是在说谎。。。何况他什么表示也没有，是你告诉我我才知道的。。。

我只是把他当普通朋友。。。

我的心很小的，只可以装下你，只爱你。





早上起床势头很痛，心更痛。。。

今天被老妈念了两句，很不服气。
'你不需要买课外书吗？人家还有补习leh'
'我知道，我有朋友在补习'
'你又不要去问你的同学他们买什么书。。。'
'aiya,不要买了lar'
'你读不好两年后就跟我去做工hor,不用读了！'

我听了对你感到很失望，很生气，你怎么可以这样说呢？！
你明明知道我要上大学的，而且我也说过了，a lvl cert在外面之找不到好工作的，比poly的diploma还差。
你这么说是什么意思呢?! 难道我不够用功吗？你有必要这么打击我吗?! 从小学到现在我都没有补过习，凭自己的实力让你和爸爸为我感到骄傲，不要给人看不起，有错吗？你真得让我很失望。。。

昨天心情不好，因此想见你。。。不管怎么样，都想见到你，虽然晚上不能一起出去，但能吃一顿午餐也不错。哈哈，做人应该知足的。。。

回到家有被念了几句，说什么吃饭为什么这么久。。。哈哈，和你在一起时间当然过得很快啊！ :p

希望能快点再见到你。。。


ps.不要常常熬夜，要常笑哦！ :P

我真的不知道那是不是爱，在爱情方面，我知道我不可以向你这么勇敢。。。
你对我好，喜欢我，这些我都知道，但我并不像到最后让彼此都受伤。。。
我承认我是个很胆小的人，我并没有足够的勇气去面对这些，

就算我


承认对你有些好感。。。

New year, new changes...

it's time for changes, and i don't know whether i'm ready for it.
everything seems to feel weird and scary for me.
i have been having countless sleepless nights, from the day b4 the release of the o's results.
going to a new school, a new environment, making new friends.... they all seem so out of place for me. i really wonder if i could cope wif all these.

i guess, the older i am, the more timid i become. As the number of days we are friends become longer, the harder it is for us to seperate. i hate changes! i really really hate them!!!

right now i need to make a decision, the school that i am goin to go. this decision may change my viewpoint, my personality, and maybe even my future....

the unforeseen future....

i worry about so many stuff, whether i could cope wif the stress, the homework, projects and lectures, whether i could make new friends in the new school, whether my new friends would like me, and whether my old friends would remember me...
the seperation fm pri sch to sec sch has drawn many of us apart. we didnt even know wat to say to each other when we met. i really dont want this to happen....

i cannot tell all these to my parents, i dont want them to worry, or to see the timid side of me. i want to leave the nice and thoughtful girl impression on them, always striving for best results to make them feel proud of me.

what can i do? i want to find someone to talk to, but who?

My first part time job

quite excited about being able to work, its a work place that i feel comfortable wif. :)

everyone seems so nice, and friendly.
i also made new friends, i not sure why, but i feel tat i could get along better wif the male colleagues. time seems to past faster when they are around, SF, JC, EJ, BG, and some others... they are all nice ppl. it's always fun talking to them, through the suanning and joking.... :)

time flies when we're having fun. school's going to start soon, and i would sure be missing all my colleagues. dunno if i would be able to see them when i go back during the school hols...